Wednesday, September 22, 2010


Hi bloggies,
           Here I come with one more post. I am sure that you people would have lost interest in my blog by reading the last post. Yep.. I thought Love sucks only in Life, but to my surprise it sucks even if its a post in a blog. Goodness heavens. None scolded me very badly for it. Hmm.. This post, you would have guessed it by the name memoirs. Puriyalaya… Adhanga vaazkai varalaaru, suyasaridhai, autobiography epdi vena solalam. This is about my Life History.
           Here goes my story… One fine day, Sunday October 18,1987, a 30 yrs old lady was lying on the hospital bed, crying out of pain. Doctors could not manage her. It was a stormy day clouds crying like hell giving company to the lady who cries out of pain. Thunder was striking hard and suddenly a baby’s voice freaked out which made the thunder subside. The lady wished for a lion like son, to her surprise exactly lion was born that day. Ya its me.. [ Veeel ndra sathathoda oru kolandha porakudhu.. Ulla poi patha andha kolandhaye naan dhan]. If a baby is born in Sunday, it is found to have one of the two characteristics. Very energetic or else very lathargic. You know in which category I fall. Sunday la porandha somberi nu thitringa, puriyudhu.. vidunga.. Their parents were so lucky to have him and his dad gave chocolates to the whole family and celebrated it as a festival.
           I grew up slowly as chubby as a baby could and as naughty as anyone could imagine. Enaku oru 3 vayasu irukum. Apa na L.K.G padichutu irundhen. [VTV background score playin] There I met Jessie. She was daam beautiful, classy and sexy too. She had a style. We use to play together all the time. As usual, she studied well and I dreamed about her didnt study. Failed in L.K.G. I was forced to change school and studied L.K.G once again. [Vetri Nichayam idhu Vedha sathiyam, L.K.G pass aavadhe naan konda Latchiyam] This is called Fate. Then till now I could’nt see her. This school was bit strict, but nama enaiku adangirkom. A teacher used to be there with Frock. Her name is Joyce Peter. WoW. Amazing teacher, she never scolds me and she never teaches me. All she wanted is a kiss from me and you know now how  I would have passed L.K.G the second attempt. [Daas Daas Chinappa Daas, Pass Paas ne ipa pass pass] 
           My mom got pissed off and she started teaching me. Daily she made me read, byheart things. I finished my U.K.G with great difficulty. Then from 1st STD till 4th, my mom was my teacher. Got lots of beatings, scoldings and at the end of 4th year I somehow managed to learn alphabets and numbers. [Oru Nayagan udhayam Aagiraan] 5th STD was awesome year I can say. I got 98 in mathematics and still my mom was not satisfied with my marks sent me to a tuition. I got 98 because of teacher called Christy and I went to her for tuition. Urupatruvoma naaanga… In her home, I use to play with a parrot and two rabbits never used to do maths. Apdi ipdi ela subject layum pass mark vangiyachu.
           My mom still not satisfied with me neither my school. So, she decided to change my school. You won’t believe me if I say I wrote entrance test in nearly 13 schools. Adhula ena adhisayam na ela school layu select ayiten. I got admission in all schools. Lolz. Then, my mom analysed for a week and selected a school which is famous for its STRICTNESS. Viduvoma naanga… Angayum Kuppa kotitom la… It was like climbing Mount Everest, with great difficulty completed every year and finally it was Xth STD and I cleared with 83%. Inga dhanga ela prachanayu aramichudhu… We have to select a group after completing Xth. All people around me gave different different ideas. My sister asked me to take Computer Science group. My dad asked me to take Commerce(he knows very well that I m not worth a professional group). My mom asked me to take Bio group. She felt that I draw good. My mom won the battle and I took Bio group.
           XI and XIIth STD. Rendu varusham na pata paadu iruke….. Somehow I cleared XIIth and next came the big blow. Entrance Exam. I joined IIPE, gone for seperate coaching classes. This, that and what not. I joined all the classes. But never gone to those classes. Inum sola pona mazhaiku kuda odhungandhu ila… Entrance ezhudhiyachu… Result vanchachu… Namaku dhan ezhudhum podhe theriyume ena result nu… Somehow managed to say the result in my home, acted as if the mistake was not mine and all done. COLLEGE…. Doctor ku seralam nu paatha en mark ku patient ah kuda ula seka maatanga… Engineering was the course which even a beggar can get a seat in college that time. Adhu oru kana kaalam. Nowadays even beggars are hesitating to take engineering.  One more battle came front. Appa sonaaru Mech edu nu, Amma soldranga CSC edu nu, Akka soldra ECE edu nu.. This time my Sis won. Aaathaa sathiyama enaku engineering na ena nu kuda theriyadhunga apa..  Took Engineering ECE stream in reputed Engineering College. Per sona siripinga… Vendam.. hmmm… Kadasi varaikum enaku en vaazhkai ku samandhame ilaama panitanga… I was behaving like a third person in my life. Sad. :(
          Naaalu varusham… Moochu thenera thenera bitu adichen. Ena padichen nu enaku theriyadhu… Ena nadathanaanga nu avangaluku puriyadhu… Aaga motham mudichuten..  Next dhan Velai thedum padalam… I have already told about my job search in my old post 2009 and 1/2. If you want continuation you can read that post after reading this. Kaludha vayasu aagudhu… Still I don’t know what I m doing and what I m upto. But, I will become a Super Star soon in one single song. Waiting for that song in my life. Now, its dedication time. I dedicate this post to my Dad, Mom and Sis who successfully collapsed and confused my life to the core.
       Thank you guys for reading it and happy reading…!!!

Friday, September 03, 2010

Pain Relief Sometimes PAIN..!!

Hulo Friends,

I am happy to meet you once again in my post which sounds interesting and fun for me but irritating and annoying for others except few. In this post I am going to write about pain, joy, excitement, enthusiasm, willingness, eagerness, sorrows, anguish, ecstacy and what not. In simple, if you want me to describe it in a single word its all about “LOVE”. Yes, this post is about Love and Love again.

LOVE - Can anyone define love ? According to me, Love can neither be defined nor can be understood. I thought about publishing a post regarding Love. And I used my GOOGLE uncle for studying about the same. Do you think I copy things from Google. Come on. Who doesn’t use Google ? Tell me.. A kid who got vexed up by asking parents to produce a sister or brother and finally gets help by google for producing sis or bro by themselves and ends up with correct solution that he or she cant get baby on their own.. Lolz. A teenager uses google for all *$#$* stuffs. A software engineer uses for getting codes. A doctor who is about to do kidney operation instead of brain operation ends up with correct brain operation. Thanks to google. Only thing it does’nt give is Mom and Dad. So, no harm using google. Lets come to the topic. GOOGLE… oops.. Sorry.. LOVE.. He he he..

Google uncle gave me lots of stuff regarding love. Let me first differentiate love which is described in the precious three books of religion. Quran, Bible and Bagavat gita. In Quran, Love is of three kinds. The first type of love that Islam calls for is the Love of Allah. The second type of love is the love of Prophet Muhammad, to follow his principles and manners. The third type of love is human love, it means that the Muslim has to love his other fellow men regardless of their ethnic, linguistic or cultural background. This includes love of neighbors, colleagues, relatives and even strangers. In Bible, again Love is of three kinds. Eros, which is sexual or romantic love. Phileo, which is a brotherly love toward someone we really like. Agape, which is the deepest love, which is based on doing good things for another person. In Baghavat Gita, Love is service. In hinduism, it can be differntiated into kama is pleasurable, sexual love, personified by the god Kamadeva. prema – or prem – refers to elevated love. karuna is compassion and mercy, which impels one to help reduce the suffering of others. bhakthi is a sanskrit term, meaning “loving devotion to the supreme God.” Hmmm… Lots of devotional stuff. But, all means the same at the end.

People have different perceptions on love. But, what I found is that projections of love in the material world are so misleading. The sitcoms, magazines, novels and almost every aspect of our daily lives are filled with false notions of so called love. It’s love that is based on the bodily concept…infatuation with the physical. kama as mentioned above alone is not Love. Come on.. Reading kamasutra one cannot develop Love. There are lot other kinds of love. According to me, I differentiate Love into many such bakwas kinds which people in the present world think that this is what Love means. Lolz.

Infactuation - Often, there is a misconception between infactuation and affection. But, it means one and the same. If you are attracted towards someone by their physical appearance and emotionally attached towards them without any proper reason or based on fantasy and idealization, it is said to be infactuation. Its kind of crush you have on other person, thinking and talking about him/her all the time, irrational one. Whereas, if you care for the person whom you like, do things for them, being for them, its said to be affection. Hope, I am right. Closeness, fondness, feeling warmth can be the characters of this kind of Love.

Sexual Love, if you want it to be pretty decent then take this word - Eros. A passionate love usually involving sexual feelings for a love interest. To be frank, person is seen only as a sex object for one’s own gratification. This kind of love is not long lasting one. This is mainly because of physical attraction and nothin else. Its purely lust based and it cannot be differentiated under Love. but, then yes.. Its a kind of love.

Platonic Love - This one is very common kind of love, which we can see in our daily life, which is within ourselves. Love towards the person who are close to you. Example can be collegue, neighbour. You do things together, share things, enjoy each other’s company, feel free to talk about anythin and everything, supportive, caring, helping, having trust and contentment. This can be the beautiful love I could say.

Puppy Love - A childish, innocent temporary crush on someone that you don’t know well. It usually occurs at young age. Feeling shy around the person, painful if there is no reciprocation, a kind of crush, dreamin about the particular person. Mainly you feel like heaven.( Apdiye kaathula medhakara mari irukum).

Romantic Love - You can say it as an abiding love for a partner with whom you feel passion, attraction, caring and respect. Its like a fairy tale. Meeting up in a candle light dinner, feel free to talk anything and everything, sharing, courtship, trust, passion, problems seem to vanish in air. Feel like romancing all the time. Sex comes as a small part but then, its forgivable in romance. Is it not?

Friendship Love - This is one of a kind. Love that has trust, contentment, reliability, easy going, sharing, good times, bad times, happiness, grief, being for the other person, supporting, long lasting, openess, a bond that is unbreakable and what not. Its Love. Its Friendship.

Spiritual/Divine Love - This type of love recognizes the Divine light in everyone and everything. Love is given to everyone as an act of loving God. Quran, Bible and Bhagavat gita explain this kind of Love.

Conditional Love - A love that requires specific action or conditions in order to be maintained. For example, I will love you IF you buy me this. Our relation will last longer IF you do this. The love is based on outside conditions and when they do not occur, the love is withdrawn.

Reasonal Love - A love that requires a reason to be maintained. For example, I love you BECAUSE you are sweet and caring. I love you BECAUSE you are smart and handsome. The love breaks up if the reason becomes wrong and its not long lasting one.

Self Love - This is a positive feeling that you have about who you are and what you deserve. It often is expressed by treating yourself well, respecting yourself, wanting yourself to be happy and expecting others to respect you too. And I am a self-lover. Lolz.

Sibling and Parental Love - The love towards your brothers and sisters and to your parents. This is.. oops… sorry… This was unchangeable once. Now, you can see lots of Old Age homes and can cry happy tears seeing love for their parents.

I have differentiated Love into many kinds. But, still there is one kind of love which I am still wondering where to place it and what to name it. Yes.. I am talking about present love stories. Researches are going on for finding out what kind of relation is that and they have named something called Live In Relationship. But, they are not sure of what kind of relation is that. Even, the people who are involved in such kind of relation don’t know what to explain and how to do it. I hope we get names and conventions for such kind of Love and once it has been confirmed, will write a post regarding it for sure. Dedication Time… I dedicate this post to all kind of lovers, acting lovers, people who love hating lovers, who love hating others, who hate loving others, lovely lovers, lovable lovers etc.,

This post has got no message. Only message is read it and have fun. Happy reading.

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